I feel that this has been coming together for some time. Back in July, I received a clear message that I must write more, that I must share my ‘voice’.
I started writing more social media posts, exploring expressing myself and what I was experiencing with the written word.
The message to write and share my ‘voice’ continued to show up in many ways in the months after. I carried on writing.
Just before the beginning of November and attending the Vipassana Meditation retreat, I had started understanding how during this year I had allowed myself to disperse my energy and direction. Even though I had set myself to live this year in a very different way, I kept doubting about what I should be doing. Over and over and over… Should I just go back to work full time? Should I work part time? Should I be a professional dog sitter and dog walker? Same questions, many times. Every time, I would be sent on a whirlwind of doubt. When I finally was able to understand what was happening and get back to my heart and inner knowing, the answer was: what you are currently doing is the right thing for you. A lot of time and energy was spent in these moments.
During the Vipassana Meditation Retreat, I witnessed my own determination to go deeper within me and make the best of that opportunity. I experienced what it meant to stay present with myself, I learnt what it was to notice what was happening within me, I felt and watched the struggle and discomfort but stayed present.
I have had these realisations in the last couple of weeks. Even though certain areas of my current life seem to be leading me to the edge of a cliff, I feel more determined than ever to be on the path I am currently on and nothing else.
I am committed to being an Intuitive Guide.
I am committed to being an Intuitive Artist.
I am committed to writing and sharing my ‘voice’.
I am committed to supporting women to change the world and that includes myself.
In the last week, something became very clear: I am to write. Regardless of what the result is, I am to write. Not just posts.
I realise that my head is full of memories, insights, stories, theories and what I must do now is write them all.
Healing needs to happen in regards writing, and the best way to do this, is to show up to writing every day.
I am to let go and release all these memories, insights, stories and theories. I have been holding on to them for too long. There will be no censoring for now. It is just a purging, a birthing of all the things I feel pregnant with.
This winter I am journeying deep within. I am excavating and bringing out everything that is there.
What happens next and what happens with what is brought out into paper, I do not need to worry about. When the time comes to face that part, I trust that I will know what to do and be guided in the right direction.
For now, I am feeling a sense of going in for the winter months, of creating time and space that feels nurturing and supportive of what I aim to do, wherever I am.
In practical terms, this means that I will be dedicating more of my time writing and have decreased my availability for Intuitive Guidance Sessions for two days a week. I am still available for these and look forward to connecting with you if you feel that I am the right person to support you on your own deep journey within.
You can book your session here: https://www.pelagiapais.com/booking/
My Women’s Circles, workshops and other plans will be put on hold for the moment. There is only one direction for now.
If you feel called to support me financially during this time, you can donate through this link: https://www.paypal.me/PelagiaPais