From dark heavy clouds, to clear blue skies of endless possibilities.
‘What about me?’ This question popped into my mind several times in my life.
I am giver. I spent a lifetime giving my love, attention, energy, to work and people. I gave, again and again, and there would be times, when I would somehow stop and ask myself: ‘What about me?’
My giving was automatic. An impulse. A compulsion. I spent a lot of time giving and waiting for my turn to receive, waiting for that time someone would do something for me and magically guessing my needs.
This often led me to feeling invisible, helpless, undervalued, unheard and sometimes taken advantage of. I felt miserable and constantly sought validation from others.
I feared expressing myself openly, of asking too much, being too much, being a nuisance.
I hid my unhappiness behind control. I had a rigid routine that gave me the feeling of being safe. I woke up at a specific time every day, arranged things around me in a particular manner, and lived in a certain way. Ultimately this began to feel like a prison where there was no spontaneity, flexibility or enjoyment of life.
This way of being left me stuck in many areas of my life. I saw no alternative to the job I had and no way out of where and of how I was living. I was unhappy. I had a sense of there being more to life and of something calling me, but I had no idea what.
Emotionally, I had experienced a lifetime of ups and downs, with fewer ups than downs. The highs had felt brief, the lows long, grey and opaque, yet on the surface I had no reason to feel that way.
Whenever something unexpected happened, from the smallest thing to bigger events in my life, I went on a whirlwind of emotions. It felt overwhelming, endless, it made me feel lost, without direction and it would take me a long time to find my way back to myself.
Anxiety and depression were familiar states.
It took a series of events to finally make me become aware of all of this. To wake up.
From intense debilitating pain to being diagnosed with fibromyalgia, from a discomfort of exploring the past in therapy to uncovering childhood sexual abuse.
I do not have it all figured out. I am still learning, growing, exploring and expanding, but I am aware. I am paying attention. I feel more energised. I feel more resilient to life’s many twists and turns, and I have a sense of there being infinite possibilities.
I am ready. I finally feel like I have the tools to deal with whatever may present itself to me.
Finally, it is time for ME.
What about you? What has brought you here? Does any of this sound familiar? Would you like to have a chat about it?
You can start by booking a FREE 30 minute Exploration Call. There is no commitment to go any further.
Are you ready to go further?
If you would like to, I would love to be part of some of your journey for however long you would have me. Maybe supporting you through a challenging time in your life, big or small.
I show up for you once a week. We work together looking at what needs to be addressed or looked at each time, always looking at body, mind and soul. I offer gentle but direct guidance. In between sessions, and depending on where you are, you will be encouraged to notice, reflect, move or explore within yourself. I will give you action steps and some gentle accountability to encourage forward motion.
I will be an independent ally during this time, someone you can trust and open your soul to and feel deeply heard and held throughout.
On the other side of our work together there is hope, clarity, resilience, balance, joy, a sense of freedom and the ability to fly again feeling stronger within yourself.
You can learn more about my guidance and support here.