On the process of transformation of a human being in the current world. A world that also seems to be in between worlds.

What happens when I allow the part of me who has been kept quiet to come out and write? What happens when I allow my anger and defiance to speak. What happens when I allow myself to be 'too much'?

In a society that values hustling, being on the go, being driven and having direction, there is no space for lazy. Lazy is considered to be a negative thing. When I go online, the definition of the word says the following: ‘unwilling to work or use energy’.

What happens when you stop 'doing' so much and start 'being' more? What happens when you actually give yourself permission to stop and do nothing? Do you immediately call yourself lazy and feel guilty? Read on, for the benefits and importance of being lazy.

Last night, I sat in my bed with my journal in my lap. I had decided to just accept I was feeling depressed and wrote those words to start with. What followed after is in this poem.

From feeling like I was not able to create, I could see that this was not quite so. Two poems came out of me, and this is the first one.

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Hello and welcome to the first newsletter of the year!

As usual, I update you on what has been happening in my life as well as the reflections and explorations I get out from everyday life. Here it goes:

Reflecting on the process of writing a book that is so personal and deals with such intense subjects as childhood sexual abuse and trauma.

How I tend to force and push things some times and the realisation that I needed to ease it all a bit and give myself some space and time.

‘There is no rush, just a continued transition and transformation within myself. Going from being a still flamingo into an action packed cheetah. I’ve just come up with a new metaphor!

Did you see what I did there? A post that I thought would be mostly about beauty and aesthetics, changed into something a little bit deeper.’

The importance of critical thinking in our spiritual and self discovery journeys. How learning to think for ourselves and become our own inner authorities in our lives is the most important gift to ourselves.

In December, I decided to record a video instead of a written newsletter. You can watch the video here.

Movement with this type of awareness opens a door to connecting to your body, to creating a different relationship with it.

Music and movement are a magical combination and I hope you get to explore this for yourself.

You know how google photos or facebook reminds you of what you were doing in previous years by showing you photos you posted or saved back then? The other day, I saw a photo and knew immediately that it was the photo I took when I ended up in hospital back on the 8 December of 2016.

I went to look on instagram to check if my memory was right and I did post this photo there on that date simply saying ‘Room with a view’ and not saying ‘hospital room with a view’. (…)

Last week, I shared a few posts where I talked about writing a book. As I connected deeply into what book is wanting to be born through me, I started understanding, that what is being asked of me as I start to write it, is that I go deeper within myself and share from there.

The idea for this book came from an excited inspired moment this summer. So much so, that I even created a sample and you can download it for free (here). The idea is/was (keeping this open) to create a book that connects to the Inner Child through colouring some of my art. It felt exciting and so right to me, at that time. There was a lot of energy for it and that is how the sample got done so quickly.

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A short post with a poem recorded in the moment of inspiration while I was walking in Hampstead Heath.

A video exploring what it means to me, going deeper in life.

A post featuring a very handsome dog called Rufus and my meanderings about the word commitment.

Another video blog this week! This time to talk about moving the body to music and how I have taken the challenge of moving to a song every day until the end of the year.