Sharing openly from the heart. Looking Trauma in the eye.
Hello! Welcome to 'It's not all happiness and coconuts'.
This is a longer post but I wanted to give you a bit of a context about who I am and what has been happening in my life in the last couple of years. At the end of the post there is a bit about financial support and it will make sense if you read this all. Hope you enjoy it.
Read MoreEven though I have read about this many times, I have recently came to the realisation of how much I keep postponing in my life.
I have been focused on self love and care for quite some time and it has been a continuous journey and practice. I feel like I have come a long way yet, there is more to do. In particular when it comes to loving my body
Read MoreI received this poem from Emma after I shared one of mine: 'In Stillness'.
I met Emma Stott in Koh Phangan, Thailand in some of my Art Expression Workshops in 2017.
My heart expands in happiness when reading these words. My sharing and expression inspired and opened the possibility of others doing the same. Isn't this wonderful?
Read MoreHere I am with my fellow events organiser extraordinaire, @charlotteeagill, in front of 600 delegates from all over the world. I was to do the organisational announcements for the Congress and also to emphasise that an event of this complexity and size had many helpers and much work involved.
I remember feeling very calm even though I had never spoken in front of so many people and definitely not on the stage of such a world famous theatre company. This was only one of many transformational steps I took in 2016.
Read MoreThis poem was written in February 2018 and it came out in flow from journalling. Suddenly one word joined another and it seemed to have a kind of song in it that makes it a poem, and there it was. The way this poem came out was different from my first one and it showed me the different ways they can come to me. Hope you enjoy it.
Read MoreEvery single soul purpose stated is a piece of who I am, and a piece of every single woman in the room and the world. We are all of those: healers, warriors, shadow hunters, galactic mothers, connectors to the ancestors, witches, truth tellers, bridges between worlds and much more.
Read More‘I am here to heal the feminine’
This was a part of what came up for me this weekend when I participated in a workshop with the title: Magdalena: Mother, Teacher, Whore, lead beautifully and vulnerably by Winter Jade Icely @the_sexwitch.
When I uttered these words out loud, surrounded by a group of women, my body felt full of electricity. I felt the truth in these words deep in my whole being.
Read MoreThis is a poem I wrote from an intense body sensory experience in Bletchley, February 2018. I will be adding some more of my poetry in the coming days. These pieces have all been written from a place of flow and inspiration, with no planning. I never thought I would be writing poetry, yet, here I am. I hope you enjoy this piece as well as my future ones.
Read MoreI used to get very annoyed at all those memes about forgiveness and the idea they seemed to put forward that forgiveness is important in order to move on in your life, that if you continue to hold on to the hurt, you won't be able to move on, and I can see how this is true, yet, what really annoyed me was that I felt that there was a sort promise implied that everything would be ok once you forgave. It would be a happy ever after sort of life.
Read MoreHow many times, as a woman, have you had to physically, and probably energetically, try to shrink yourself to fit? How many times did you dim yourself, so someone could feel better about themselves?
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This second part of my reflective blog post on the first 6 months of 2018 mentions dogs, magical parks, fairies; as well as self-doubt, leaps of faith and trust.
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The year started with me only having organised accommodation back in London for the first two weeks. After that, I did not know what would happen in terms of accommodation, but I was going to try and live in London rent free for as long as I could…
Read MoreDo you think that there is a list within you of memories that need to be released? Are there memories that keep coming up at certain times in your life?
Read MoreThis all inspired me to write this post as well as coming to the realisation, that I am no longer the ugly duckling and that it is time to embrace and embody the beautiful swan in me.
Read MoreToday is the 15 October and it is exactly a month to the date of my return to London. As I continue to experience the amazing transformation and healing that the island of Koh Phangan is still offering me, I look back and see more clearly the different experiences and stages of my stay here. It all makes sense, it all seems to lead to the present moment in full perfection. In the last month, things have started accelerating considerably and my transformation is coming faster and faster. It is an internal process of growth with insights and many many realisations of how I have been living my life, what has been limiting me and learning to free myself from these limitations. Setting myself free. I trust that this last month I will learn to integrate these changes in myself and more continue to happen with ease and comfort.
I have a couple of art projects starting this week and I am super excited about painting more walls and allowing my creativity to express itself fully in these works. I am hoping to show you their progress in the coming weeks and tell you a bit more of the story behind these.
Last week I finally went to visit the east side of the island. I realise that I have not really been much of a tourist here and there is so much I have not done, but I trust, once more, that I will have the opportunity to come back and have the space to fully explore the natural beauty of this place.
London has been present in me, as the place I normally call home. I have no clue if it will feel like home in the same way, but am open to exploring how it will feel to be back. Moving from one of the biggest cities on the planet to a small village on an island in South East Asia, has been quite an experience.
I will be in London for 1 month (15 November until 15 December) and look forward to having the opportunity to share my Art Expression Workshop with anyone who would like to. If you would like to host a group session at your place, let me know.
I will also be giving my Intuitive Healing sessions which are now inspired in lots of the experiences of healing I have had on the island. If this has made you curious, get in touch and let's book a session and explore how I can support you.
Look forward to my return but I also want to still be very present with all that is still to happen for my last month here.
Bruce absolutely loved this time of year! He could feel the weather getting colder and he knew that sooner or later he would be reunited with his old friends as well as displayed in the very best location in the house. He was very proud of his branches, which after so many years were still lushingly green in a great imitation of a real tree.
He was looking forward to being reunited with his greatest friends: the baubles, tinsel, the lights, angels and the brightest star. They would have long chats into the night noticing and commenting on the changes they would see in the family they lived with. He had a bit of a thing for the star that was always displayed so proudly by him right at the top. They would keep talking even longer than all the others. They would share their dreams of one day coming to be real humans and all the different things they would like to do.
The day finally came and he could hear Helen coming up to the attic followed by the kids. They were terribly excited and brought down all of them in their different boxes. In no time they were all set up. There were some new additions to the decorations and Bruce looked forward to spending time with them and get to know them. Presents started being put under him, it looked like this Christmas was going to be a good one!
